Dear friends...

Dear friends,

 I don't know what you see in me that makes you want to be my friend. Whatever the reason, I truly appreciate you in my life.

 I realize that I am egoistic, self centered and selfish. I have never valued the impact friends have made in my entire life.

 This is to you all, who have seen my highs as well as my lows and still stood by me. If you ever read this, you know who you are.

 My friends, who have been doing all the small things for me even though you have no benefit from it, thank you very much. I have asked you for everything and you never hesitate for a moment and jump right in my petty mess. I know I have not returned the favor and I have hesitated when you have asked me for similar things but you have never brought it up when I ask for more, ever so selfishly.

 The friends I have the highest of intellectual discussions with, you have made me one of the most knowledgeable person. Hours of discussions on science, philosophy and art, all have developed my mind to an extent that has molded me. I cherish all the talks of relativity of time, views of scholars, feats of science and technology, the enormity of the universe and the eye of the artists to create a masterpiece.

 I have undermined a lot of my friends as well. I have laughed at your views, your nature and your difference with me. I would like to apologize for everything. Even though I have not been a good friend, ignoring you rather than understanding, you have always been there when I needed and love me endlessly.

 And the friends who listen to my every self obsessed talks, you are all a gem. I don't know why, but I have always been the one to share everything. I share my success with you and the narcissistic me probably does it with an extreme gloating and yet you are always happy for me. Then, there are times of my lows. I pour out every sadness in long hours of self pity sessions and you are always there to support and console me.

 I realize that I am too much of a work for all of you but that has never made you ignore me. I irritate my friends a lot and yet I find love in your hearts for me.

 This is a letter to all my friends and I pour my heart into it. I write in the moment of clarity but with one question still in my mind,

“What have I done to deserve friends like you?”