A little peace of mind…

Ah! It has been a long time since I have been home early and in a mood to write. Lately, I have either been out late running away from every responsibility or come home and wait for my phone to go ding ding.

So today I said sorry to my friends and drove home straight from work. Now I am sitting down in front of my computer, a pleasing song on repeat, lovely breeze and a drizzle outside, hot tea to warm me up and my phone’s Wi-Fi turned off. I am spending this Friday evening with my readers.

Speaking of my readers, I wonder who you are reading this piece. Are you a person I know or some stranger? Are you someone I adore dearly or someone I can’t stand at all? The people from former category, I say ‘Heeeeyyy!!!’. You can be anyone and I can only imagine, how you look, your nature, your beliefs, your life, you are happy or you are sad. But to everyone, I hope you have a great day and you like what you are reading.

A simple thing like this can make your day. I know it all too well. I spent the last few weeks in dark place hoping someone would come up to me and tell me that whatever it is, you will do great and everything will be alright. I did get that sparsely, making me happy for a while. But I wished for more of it. Well, you can’t expect other’s to understand what you are going through, especially for someone like me. I don’t like to share my problems with anyone thinking they would get sad themselves. So, that led to me staying in the dark place for a while.

I am sure everyone has been in this ‘dark place’ one time or the other in their life and in this place you can’t think straight. You don’t know that you are hurting yourself and everyone around you. Every judgement you take is clouded and the dark personality you portray is something everyone hates.

Alas! Had I only thought of things as I am thinking today, things probably would be unlike it is today. This is the moment I feel if the time travel was real. I wish I could go back and do things differently. Just to be sure, I googled it just now and time travel is still not possible this moment. But I am trying my best to make things right now and I hope I am given the chance.

Anyways, yesterday I had an epiphany. I realized that I link everything in my life to something or someone. I am not going to give any examples of it. You can think and relate it with your life. Before I slept yesterday, I decided I will try not to do that as much now. I am going to be my own man. I have too much at stake to not be doing that. Then it hit me. I have told this to everyone who has come to me sad. I have given a lot of advice to a lot of people but somehow I never looked after myself. I can calm an angry person but I have never done anything to control my temper, which I know is quite bad. I apologize to everyone who have crossed path with my anger.

So, I woke up today, looked into the mirror, smiled and said to myself, ‘I will do great and everything will be fine’. I also meditated after a long time. And to tell you the truth, I feel good.

The song is still playing, rain has stopped and only an empty glass remains. I guess it’s time for me to bid you goodbye. I hope you enjoyed this.

Until next time, enchanté …